But I do have it!

But I have changed my mind and decided that I will never die. These roads might not last long, but mine are eternal.

I haven't changed my mind at all and have decided to die anew each second. These roads might not last long, but mine never began.

I can throw moments as grass to the wind and drop time as flowers to death because I will look on that white orb for always. And I will never look at it again.